Hey! I've got a name is Colin Taylor one I was born with.

I am incredibly lucky in the way like only 1% of the world is. I am a thirty-six year old middle class well-educated English male, married to Sheridan, I have the superstar from the supernova daughter Sidony, and live in a fantastic house in a great town with a well-paid part-time job. So what's the problem Mr Lucky? You are still seeing a glass that's half-empty and are committing the great crime of not realising what you've got!

I feel I have begun not to appreciate Sheridan because I have started to secede from myself, and into some little hideaway from the world, unpoliced by others who will point out my shortcomings. In my heart, I do not want to abscond from reality__losing grips on reality is avoidable... I need to take the reponsibilities towards myself and my family a lot more seriously than I am doing at the moment. It would be deeply pathetic and loseresque to succumb to the craziness. I have got responsibilities!

I need to have control over my life, because at the moment I feel very lost. I feel I have so little causevalue over the things that happen, and I feel a fairly deep-seated sense of depression. This cannot be repaired or maintained in any way by drinking it away. So, stop now. Now, the main thing is thus, how do I create control?
Part of me thinks "Designer, design thyself!" Why shouldn't it be possible? How do you design y'self better?
Process of the Getting Real.
Detox programme is good because it allows you to take care of yourself, which is something I am fundamentally pretty crappy at doing. Self-discipline no binging Drinking and smoking is the losing game. I have got such an incredible amount of stuff, but its like a heap of teenage bedroom, all clutterbuck and shammy. Undon the manana head you damn fool, and live in the now So what is the mantra, a fiveway mantra I need to extol to myself every day. Colin, you are a special person I love you! See, even you can smile this time of the day 2/Job I am a lousy lecturer who can only just organise the things required. Its no self-denial ambition need to create, very important, very powerful, very special. The river is very powerful, and can be a great way of rehabilitating myself. to top